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I quited smoking 5 days ago, i die for a smoke right now. Bad days had come, im in abstinence, from tobbacco and from relationships, and i feel like shit!

Im avoiding myself cause truth is too painfull and i dont wanna live it, but today i feel like 100 girlfriends had broke with me, i wanna cry, im screaming for attention but im unable to make a dam sound. A silent scream.

I dont wanna be me right now, i wanna run... I fuckin miss her, and its too fucking painfull let her go, its too fucking painfull not having control over anything but me, and even i cant control myself.

its fucking shit!!! im in anger and i hate everything!!!!